I broke my rules. I went for a run and I didn’t follow the same path I always did. I ran from Sage’s apartment back to the AU building. I ran the 55 flights of stairs twice before I went to the Night Life building. I could have called Ant. It was dusk now he should be awake. But I didn’t. I didn’t even grab a cup of coffee. I ran to the edge of Dom’s territory and thought about crossing over just to get into a fight. I needed to blow off more steam and I really couldn’t do that anyplace in public.
Instead I ran through Central Park. I don’t know how many miles I ran. I could look, my phone would tell me. I don’t know how mny times my playlist ran through. Sage had called me three times and I didn’t answer. Dev and Dee had both tried. My phone was blinking rapidly for all the missed texts I had. I don’t know how long I was gone for, I didn’t really fucking care at this point.
By the time I was back in Hell’s Kitchen it was late. The street lamps were sheding their putrid yellow light and I sat down on Sage’s front stoop to catch my breath. I sat there until my breath was normal and then some. I heard the door open behind me and Sage came out. I could smell the jasmine and lavender in the air before he sat down next to me pressing his leg against mine. “What’s wrong, Nox?”
I shook my head. “Nothing’s wrong Sage.”
“Yes there is. You took off without eating. I thought we had plans tonight. To your shields or something.” He said confused.
“I’m here, they are here. Nothing’s changed.” I said.
“Why did you go for a run?” He pleaded with me.
“Because I was jealous. Alright. You’ve been fucking them both without me. You were fucking Dee right under my nose.”
“I know what I said.” I interrupted. “I’m perfectly aware I’m being a hypocrit right now. I said you could. I shouldn’t be jealous, yet I am. What makes it worse Sage is that I had the chance to do the same thing today. To sleep with Dev. And I wanted to. I would have if he hadn’t stopped us.”
“Why didn’t you?” He asked as he shifted away from me leaving a small gab between us.
“Dev said you weren’t ready to share me when you weren’t around.” I sighed, “But I think he said that because I had thought it.”
I stood up. “I’m tired. I need a shower.” I left Sage sitting on the front stoop and headed towards the bedroom to grab a shower.