AJ is working on Camp NaNoWriMo at the moment – writing my introduction story.  The how it all begins type thing.  AJ’s on target for the writing goal of 75K – though this past weekend was a bust writing.

Despite that set back, AJ has introduced a character too early.  It blends the story together better, but it threw several kinks into the story.  Scenes have been rearranged and relationships have been  brought forward before they were ready.  But it’s not something that’s forced.  It’s natural.  At least AJ hopes so.  It’s hard to tell when it’s just word spewing and no one is following along say that was too fast or that was wrong.

Anyway.  I’m at the point where I’m completely confused about things in my life.  I’ve alluded to some of it here.  The I want a family.  I want safety.  I’ve alluded to who the one is for me.  I’m not going to spoil the story.  But with this new hiccup in the outline there are so many mixed signals. I don’t know what to think.  What to feel.  The direction is great.  But every direction AJ has gone has been great.  But this rewrite seems to be much more dark in terms of revealing my secrets.  The dark secrets only Jace really knows. And maybe Margo.  The two people who know me inside out, backwards and forwards.

My world is about to get flummoxed and I have no idea where it’s going.  AJ does to a degree but there is no telling where it will go.