Category: Feelings
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But more importantly today is Alex’s Birthday. In 2019 he’ll be 29. He’s almost 30… dude, we are getting old! What are we going to say when we are 300? What will the world be like then? Too far to think about and way to depressing too. AJ has a story in progress for Alex’s…
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Looking for random beauty in things today.
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Today is Father’s Day in the US. In my story it’s past June. And that means it’s past Father’s Day when I have my kids. So I’m thinking, as a Venatori we don’t exactly celebrate Father’s or Mother’s Day. We don’t really celebrate any holidays. At least not the Venatori. I did some of them.…
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There has been a lot of Mars Rover Opportunity stuff on AJ’s feed. It’s last transmission was “My battery is low and it’s getting dark.” It’s a robot, how can I feel bad about this? It died on alone on a desert planet and it’s last transmission sound so sad and lonely. We need to…
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It’s Thanksgiving in the real world here in the good ole US of A. So as is the tradition I’d like to say what I’m thankful for. I’m thankful for finding out the man of my dreams is literally the man of my dreams in all senses of the word. Sure Alex has his flaws.…
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Who holds the keys to happiness? I know I don’t. But I am happy. Even knowing I have shit coming I’m happy. Alex and I are good. So good :) But how long will that really last. We will have our ups and downs. But hopefully no more running away or break ups. Though I…
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For everyone who has been following me through the journey. I thank you, but you also know AJ’s terrible at keeping me happy. She throws all sorts of things my way making my life a muddy hell sometimes. But without her I’d not be alive as it were. I’d just be some idea kicking around,…
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Once upon a time I used to think my favorite places were the mountains filled with forests and springs and fallen rocks. But I think somewhere along the lines my favorite place turned out to be my dreams. A scary little room filled with things that made me afraid, yet they were the safest place…
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I’m a figment on AJ’s imagination. But that is hardly news to most of you. I influence writing and sometimes general mood. I’m not always a good influence. lately I’ve been feeling weird. AJ isn’t writing enough me and I’m not giving enough tidbits. I’m happy tho. AJ is happy. It’s all good. Outlining Darwynn’s…
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Just so you are all aware I’m not talking about you in any sense. That is completely directed at AJ! Last night was a crap sleep night for AJ. I spent a caffeine induced wake period bouncing all over plot and reasons for my story for the larger arc of this new rewrite. I was…
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Black and white photos always seem to bring out a different emotion than the one that a color photo might. Maybe it’s all the grays speaking to you. Maybe it’s the lack of color. I see a cute cat looking back at me saying what the fuck? It’s not happy. It’s not sad. Just like…
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Yeah I wish that were happening. Sitting on the beach having a happy day. Instead today I wrote myself an email. A long letter about how I felt. I didn’t send it where I wanted to. But I had to hit send. My whole schedule thing is killing me right now. On top of the…
The Mind of Nox 