Dazed and Confused

A good movie. Though I’ve never personally seen it. It’s not one of those things Sage would make me watch, but AJ liked it well enough. And it is the birth place of Matthew McConaughey’s Alright, Alright, Alright. So yeah great movie!

But I’ve been in a bit of a rut lately. AJ’s mental health dictates a lot of what I do and how I do it, and how loud I am. Right now I’m silently screaming in her head — let me out. Not because I’m trapped, or stifled or even dazed. AJ has so many other things on her mind I let it be. But I need an outlet. I need to remember why I’m here. And that’s to help AJ’s mental health, but locked up inside I can’t help.

And with editing being priority number 1, I don’t get that voice I should. I don’t push, I know AJ wants to publish. But AJ’s feeling that strain even more than I am. We need to write. To feel better about her world. To dive into mine and escape the reality of the flesh space.

But the question becomes what do we write? Do we write some short stories? Those never really satisfy us. AJ’s thinking a pure romance as much as she says I need to finish the Shadowlands which is just me and Alex (mostly) it’s not much romance. AJ and I want to get back to the basics — pure unfettered love story. That’s what we need.

So many ideas. Where to start.