What is your darkest childhood memory?
That’s a loaded question. My darkest memory – there are lots of them. But I think the darkest memory is the one where I lost my best friend in a fire I created because I had a dipshit roommate try to steal him. Mushu died in that fire but the only redeeming thing was the friend I made that night. My dream mushu, my blue eyed boy, the love of my fucking life as it turned out. I only wished I’d thought he was more than a dream back then maybe we’d have been together longer.
What bad habit are you struggling to overcome?
A bad habit that I’m struggling to overcome. I don’t know. Really. I have anxiety with change so that’s always a struggle. I don’t know if I have a bad habit. I’d have to ask someone else, Alex or Ant or something.
Why does your journey matter to you personally?
My journey matters to me because my goal is to find my family – to find love. I get to find my soul mate, and I get to save people. It gives me purpose and I need purpose.
What does a perfect world look like to you?
A perfect world would see supernaturals and humans living together in peace. There would be no hidden wars. Humans might not know we exist but there would be peace.
What smell or scent reminds you of your childhood home?
Baking Apple Pie. And that’s all I’ll say on that.
What is your biggest regret?
My biggest regret is not knowing Alex from my dreams for all the years I’ve dreamt about him.
Who was your childhood sweetheart?
I didn’t have one. If I did it would probably be Alex. But I didn’t know he existed and I didn’t remember him.
What do you fear losing the most?
Myself. I fear losing myself in everything. And part of me is always my family.
Is there a secret spot you like to retreat to? If there is, why that spot?
When I was younger I used to retreat to the roof of the AU building. It was quiet and I could be alone. And I could conquer my fears from the roof. But now I think I go to the beach when I need that spot. That’s where Alex likes to go and where Ant took me. But I don’t really have one now.
Do you have a family member that’s ever let you down? If so, how has that affected you?
My mother let me down once and that was all it took to set my life in motion. She didn’t love me when I became something she hated. Something she feared. I’ll never do that to anyone – not ever.
Are you afraid to be alone?
Abso-fucking-lutely. I like to be alone, but when I think of being alone forever that’s not something I could do.
Are you proud of who you are?
That’s a tough question to answer. I’m proud of who I think I am. I not proud of what I am, or the things I’ve had to do in my life. I try to better myself and be a better person than how I was raised.
What keeps you up at night?
The better question to ask is what doesn’t keep me up at night.
What was your favorite stuffed animal or toy as a kid?
Mushu the dragon from Mulan.
What was your worst injury ever?
Being Venatori I don’t really get hurt to the point of being worst ever, but I did break both my arms after jumping from the roof.
What song makes you think of your crush?
He’s not my crush anymore, but Without You by My Darkest Days.
What was your bravest moment?
I don’t think I have a bravest moment. I’ve done a lot of things I was afraid of, but I don’t consider myself brave. I just do what I have to do.
Who can make you smile no matter how bad you feel?
Alex. Real or dream Alex was always there to make me smile.
What is one thing you always carry with you?
I always carry a full zippo lighter with me. Just in case I need a little bit more fire and a lot to tired to just conjure it.
Who is one person you would never ever want to see again? Why?
Garrett Spencer. But I’ve seen him on and off and will continue to see him. It’s the nature of living in a small community.
What, to you, is the worst way to die?
By fire. Or drowning. But later on in the story any permanent way to die so beheading is probably the worse to die.
You can bring one person back to life. Who would you choose and why?
I don’t know. There is no one who has died that means that much to me, maybe Alex’s Dad so he’d have had a relationship with him. Maybe Alex’s childhood would have been better and he wouldn’t have needed to have the friend in his dreams that never remembered him. I’m not say I want Alex to never have been in my dreams, just not need me to be able to forget so he could keep his own sanity and tell someone the things he did in the name of his mother and for the con.
Is it easy to admit when you’ve made a mistake?
Yes, I make them all the time.
Is it easy for you to forgive others? (Truly?)
No. I’m still trying to forgive both of my parents. I say I have but I know I still have issues with it all.
You’re on your death bed. Who do you want by your side?
Alex mostly, but my family would be great too.
Your childhood bully has grown up to be a philanthropist. Do you praise him and give to his cause? Or do you turn a shoulder to him and scoff?
It would really depend on the cause. If it involved kids I probably would. I wouldn’t intentionally snub any other cause but I don’t have to help either.
Who would you want to raise your child if you die unexpectedly?
If I died unexpectant, Alex, but if we both did I’m gonna have to go with Ryan. He’d be the best equipped to handle them.
Do you suffer from a reoccurring nightmare? If so, what happens in it?
Not anymore but I used to and I’d rather not repeat it.
What do you notice first about a person?
Eyes. Eyes are the first thing I notice when I meet a new person.
Do you find it difficult to praise others?
Which color do you feel looks best on you?
Huh, a question AJ actually has to think about for me… AJ keeps coming back to a dark rusty colored orange. Brings out the tan from all the sun I get.
What’s your drink of choice?
Black Coffee, then water with lemon
Which parent do you take after more? (If they know their parents)
I wouldn’t know I never knew my parents and I don’t take after my dad really.
What quality about your parent do you admire? Abhor? (If they know their parents)
I idolized my father when I was younger, before I knew he was my father.
Do you wish to be a loner? Or have a family one day? (Or if they already have a family, do they enjoy family life or regret it?)
I like being alone at times to recharge, but I need my family. It took me a long time to find them. I’m not going to give them up easily.
What odd habits or ticks do you have?
I have lots of odd habits, I eat the same thing every week. I get up and do the same things almost every day. I live by my schedule.
Have you traveled to other lands? Or planets, even?
No, I’ve been to Colorado and Las Vegas (once). I’m pretty much a New York City boy.
Do you feel a need to fix or repair problems that don’t directly involve you?
I’d like to say no, but the answer is yes.
How do you view other races or cultures?
With an open mind. I try to understand them because I can’t help them if I don’t understand their rules, their ways.
Do you worry about what the future will bring?
All the time. I worry about a great many things and what the future holds is always a problem.