This is the aftermath of Falling
Lying next to Alex in our bed in our new home was priceless. It was ours. Not mine, not his, ours. Our family. And even with all that I’d remembered I still dug each night into the memories of the dreams I had suppressed to keep Alex safe. They always started the same.
The room was white – it was always perfect except for the colored blocks I currently stomped on in my bright green fuzzy slippers with claws. My PJs matched my outfit, all green with fins. I was a monster – specifically a dragon. I growled and stomped on the tower buildings I’d built. The blunt edges pressing into my feet but I didn’t care as I stomped the next tower.
The curtains fluttered in the wind and the soft scent of citrus filters to my nose and my smile grew wide. It was such a comforting smell. I turned to see who might be here and saw an older boy standing against the open window watching me. His bright ice blue eyes drew me in and the smirk on his face was a faded memory. I don’t recall ever seeing him again. I bit my bottom lip shyly.
He pushed away from the wall, “Why do you insist on starting this way Pretty Boy?”
I shrugged. I didn’t know what he meant and he knelt down in front of me. “You’re sixteen now. Why do you always dream of being a little boy?” I felt like I should know this, know him. I shrugged again but I changed. I wasn’t me. But I wasn’t myself either.
He smirked at me, “And who is this?”
I turned to look in the mirror I knew was behind me and smiled. I’d taken on the guise of my best friend, except my eyes shown through where his dark blue eyes should have been. “A friend.” I shrugged. My voice was still the same. I imagined his were too. A calming and soothing voice I wished to hear in the real world. I wished to see his eyes there too. If only he could be real.
Sadness crossed my friend’s face like he’d heard what I’d thought. But it was quickly replaced with a smile as he wrapped his arms around my waist from behind. The length of his body pressed against me. “What brings you to the dream world so early?”
It took me a little while to think while he was pressed up against me. Thought was difficult as he breathed against my neck. I leaned my head to the side to give him better access and he only pressed his nose up against the soft skin above my t-shirt. He hummed his impatience and I smiled into the mirror watching him nuzzle my neck. “I’m in the Infirmary. I broke my arms. I guess I fell asleep.”
His arms tightened around my body and he growled low in his throat. “What did you do?”
I shrugged. “Just fell.” It was a sort of lie and he knew it but he didn’t press me for more. If he asked I would tell him. But he never did.
“Don’t ever do it again okay? Whatever it was you did.”
He stared into the mirror and I dropped my gaze and gave him a quick nod. “I don’t want to lose you.” He said softly.
“I …” He pressed his lips against my neck and I groaned forgetting what I was going to say.
The world shifted and I was on my back with him on top of me. His body pressing me into the mattress that hadn’t been there before. I reached for his face and he smirked as he sat back and my hands fell into his lap. His fingers deftly pushed my arms above my head, “You wouldn’t be able to touch me in the real world. You think you can hold still.”
I nodded. “I know I can.”
His voice was heavy with lust as he whispered in my ear, “Prove it.
I got lost in the dream, a dream I wouldn’t remember in the morning, but it was a perfect dream. I woke with Alex’s arm still around me. I hadn’t jumped since that day. I had never wanted to. I had lost control plenty, but I’d never jumped again – except to save Garrett.
A soft growl rumbled in Alex’s chest. “I remember that dream. I’d watched your thoughts playout what had happened. Scared the fuck out of me. Confused me since I didn’t know what you were. But I guess I’ve always known you were my mortal enemy.” Alex smirked and rolled over on top of me. His body pushed into mine, “I think you need to prove it again.” He grinned as he pushed my hands above my head and kissed me long and deep.