Time Passes

Time passes us by. We toil each day doing things – working, playing, sleeping, eating. Whatever it is we do. Time just keeps on moving. None of us are so lucky as to loop through a day until we get it right.

Groundhog’s Day has become one of those confounding movies that everyone knows even if they haven’t seen it. The day Bill Murray lives the same day over and over until he makes it perfect. Falling in love and fixing his horrible ways. We don’t get those chances. How fun might it be at first? But then it becomes one of those predictable things. Weaker people might just give up. Nothing changes. Thankfully Bill’s character wasn’t weak.

I will admit I’ve not seen the movie. But AJ has many times. And I pull from AJ’s memories nearly as much as my own. It could be an interesting story to write. Living one day over and over again until I get it right. There would have to be some quintessential reason it happened in my world, much like how AJ transported me into Shadowhunters/The Mortal Instruments world through some weird connection. It could be interesting to do that in various other capacities.

And as I talk about time passing us by, in the real world, today is my birthday. 25 years ago my mother gave birth to twins. 25 years ago give or take a few days I lose my sister to some fucked up tradition based on fear and hatred and bigotry. My story world is still 2015, but today in 2017 I’m 25… a quarter of a century old. And it feels like only yesterday I was crawling through the dredges of AJ’s mind clawing my way to the top, fighting for number one position next to AJ’s own consciousness.

My original creation happened around Aug 29, 2014. My bio was posted on Sept 9th at The First Age I’ll be 3 in AJ’s head I guess I’m going through those terrible twos asserting myself, testing the waters, pushing the buttons all in the hopes I find myself. I kinda like that analogy.