AJ and I have been talking a lot about control lately. We can thank Alex and his writer for the conversations. But if you’ve read The Last Phoenix you know there are some pretty big elements in it for me and my love.

For those of you who haven’t, why the hell not? It’s free, it’s digital – go download it and stop waiting for me to post it.

Control is how I get through everyday. My schedule is pretty set, my food is set. I live life between workouts, food and try not to go insane when things don’t fall out of place. Sage is new to my life, and he likes control. He likes a great many things I’m going to understand. Things I never thought about. Now, it’s all I can think about. But that’s not for now.

I need sometimes for someone to take control, to make me do something just because they want me to. Jace has been my big go to for that. He drags me home to his family. He’ll drag me dancing, or to a movie. Things that I could do on my own, but sometimes the monotony of everyday life gets too overwhelming that even a jump from the building doesn’t help.

Sage I think is going to help a lot in my issues, if I don’t scare him away.