The better part of valor! The better part of valor!

The above quote is a favorite. If you’ve ever played Baulder’s Gate Khalid would shout this as he ran away. The quote is a variation on Shakespeare – yeah me Shakespeare!

To die is to be a counterfeit, for he is but the counterfeit of a man who hath not the life of a man; but to counterfeit dying, when a man thereby liveth, is to be no counterfeit, but the true and perfect image of life indeed. The better part of valor is discretion, in the which better part I have sav’d my life.
Henry The Fourth, Part 1 Act 5, scene 4, 115–121

I’m don’t let my fears make me run away. They do influence me. They do guide me. Someone one said Fear is what makes us want to live. Without fear you’d jump headlong into traffic. It’s the fear of getting hit that keeps us from that fate. I know I’ve rattled on about my fears here before. It’s always something on my mind.

To flee is to retreat. Retreating is a something you do when the odds get rough. But it doesn’t mean you are giving up. I had to learn that the hard way. I don’t like running away – from anything.

Recently I’ve been having to deal with my father. The same father I hated for most of my life. And yet ironically my father was one of my childhood heroes. The quandary for this particular situation is never lost on me. I want to run away from it. I don’t want to have to deal with my feelings. What makes it worse is my father is in a similar boat – happy to live in blissful ignorance. So we stay at a stalemate.

But I’m not going to run away from this.