Every since I can remember – even before coming to the Venatori I have been terrified of heights. I remember my first ride in the elevator at the Apex Unlimited building. I buried my face in Garrett’s leg. It was far better than having to look at the floor falling farther and farther away from me.
I still have panic attacks when I have to ride in the plate glass elevators of the AU building, I’m just a little better at hiding them now.
But I’m not one to shy away from the things that scare me. Garrett taught me that the hard way. I do what I’m afraid of just to prove to myself I can. When I was eight years old I started jumping from various heights inside the AU building, a form of parkour perhaps, it is one of my more favorite sports and has been for years. As I became more confident I started jumping from the top of the AU building – one of the tallest buildings in New York City.
The first few jumps were more like base jumping with parachutes as back up but I never pulled the cords I let my ability to bend the elements catch me and soften my landing. I eventually could do it without thinking and the closest to the ground anyone had ever dared do. My little jumping habit became a cult phenomenon in the Academy that persists today for all Magnus and those who are willing to risk their lives jumping with a Magnus in tandem. It’s a rush – 8 seconds of pure bliss – absolute control.
When I left the Academy I had to use nature as my spring board for my thrills. I would save spots on the map that had great heights and places I could jump from. I even went hang gliding a few times. Being at the mercy of the wind was a little daunting but I conquered that fear too.
I don’t let anything scare me to the point of inaction – to do so would be against everything I was ever taught.