I’ve never been much of a daydreamer.  I’m not much of a looking towards the future or wondering what my life would be like if X were to happen to me.

Yes, I wanted out of my current situation.  I wasn’t happy.  I want change but the only way you get to what you want is you have to work towards it.  Daydreams are fun and all, but they don’t help you reach that goal.

I wanted to graduate.  So I worked my ass off to be the best damned hunter I could be.

I wanted to be healthy and confident and secure in who I am.  So I pretend that was me.  I was confident while scared shitless on the inside until one day I wasn’t afraid anymore.  I am still that boy who is afraid of things – many things, but I don’t let my fears rule me…