All Alone

The room was empty. The pentagram was on my floor. The blood pooled in a slick puddle of red. I had no idea if everyone was okay. I wasn’t likely to ever find out. It was a dream after all. A dream where I wasn’t even me. I was Nox. I had Nox’s power. I had his gift, his job. I saw what he dealt with daily. It was a lesson.

And one I think I learned.

I killed a man with my power – his power. Nox had to be careful every moment of his life. He had fine control on everything. He needed that release. Needed someone to tell him what to do on occasion. It wasn’t about a kink. It was a release. I thought I’d understood before.

I thought I knew what made him happy. This had been fun. Scary, but fun. I had killed saving someone. I cared what happened. Nox cared more than I did. His power was draining. I could feel it eating at me when I’d killed that little girl. I sank to the floor and then flopped to my back to stare at the ceiling. “Dev. I’m done. I got it now. Nox needs the hunt as I need my computer. It’s life. It’s death without it.”

I closed my eyes and I hoped to wake up. I hoped to wake up to a world where my lovers were wrapped around me. But I knew one would be missing. I knew Nox would be doing what he needed to do. And if he ever spoke to me again I would be lucky. I thought I knew him. Thought I understood, but I was wrong.

Out the Door (11/1/2017)
The Boys (11/2/2017)
My Lovers (11/3/2017)
Oh. My. God. (11/5/2017)
Dean Winchester (11/6/2017)
Castiel (11/8/2017)
Portals (11/9/2017)
Alec and Magnus (11/10/2017)
Bonnie’s Diner (11/11/2017)
Dean’s Story (11/12/2017)
Azazel (11/13/2017)
The Next Morning (11/14/2017)
What’s Next (11/15/2017)
Looking At Me (11/16/2017)
Demon Tracking (11/17/2017)
Not a Demon (11/18/2017)
Running Away (11/19/2017)
Manning Up (11/22/2017)
Going Up (11/22/2017)
Tech is Tech (11/23/2017)
Waiting (11/24/2017)
Regrouping (11/25/2017)
The Docks (11/26/2017)
A Fight (11/27/2017)
Rambling (11/28/2017)
Deep Dark Secrets (11/29/2017)
Exorcism Required (11/30/2017)
The Kitchen Show (12/1/2017)
Kinks (12/2/2017)
The Bait (12/4/2017)
Fucking Goats (12/5/2017)
Summoning a Demon (12/6/2017)
All Alone (12/7/2017)


When AJ started this we didn’t expect a lot of draw. I’m a pretty niche topic. I mean I ramble about things that aren’t real. I ramble about things that some of you might understand, or about things you think I’m saying completely wrong. (And if that is the case please shoot me an email or a comment, I don’t want to make a demographic feel uncomfortable unwittingly – I don’t mind if I do it on purpose but on accident that’s not my style.)

But after two years and one year of daily posts I have 300 followers. That seems nearly unfathomable except those are the numbers. 300 of you follow my rambling regularly. 300 souls who take pity on my fictitious heart and say ‘hey I like you’.

So with a flourishing bow and a tip of my invisible hat I salute you. Without you I’d be nothing but a figment of some crazy person’s imagination. You give me life beyond imagining.

In the coming New Year I want to try to interact more with you. But so far it’s been like pulling teeth. A few regular commenters who absolutely make my day with every comment. So if you have any ideas how that might work, or what you might like to see I’m all ears.

I had mentioned the “Dear Nox” thing. A Dear Abby type shtick. But I dunno AJ would have to get some questions geared up since we have no questions yet. Could you see me giving love advice? My fucking love life is a chaotic mess… Wait till you see more of it in The Evolution of Power. I expect in a few weeks you’ll start seeing it. New Years Eve is scheduled for the end of And With Great Power.

There is a final short story AJ wrote over NaNoWriMo but if you see it’ll be over at The Stars, Moon and You as it’s a short for Zane and Angel. But AJ intends to allude to it and keep it secret until after their next story. Which will happen AFTER the Evolution of power probably while AJ is reading my entire story (which you can find in the Collections in the menu) and taking notes on characters, dates, plot holes, locations, and nearly every other story item you can think of before we attempt a rewrite/edit. I’m still pushing for a big change, but we’ll see how Evolution plays out.

Anyway. Thank you for following me! You are the reason I keep plodding along here. Well that and I like the sound of my own voice! I love you all. Thank you.

The Naughty List

AJ loves Jenna Morecci. She has a you got it – The Naughty List tag for christmas… And you know me anything for an innuendo right?

So gorge your eyes on these responses. But first the rules:


  1. Provide a brief description of your novel before beginning. NO MORE THAN 5 SENTENCES.
  2. If your cast is fewer than 15 characters, you can’t use the same name more than twice. If your cast is larger than 15 characters, you can’t use the same name more than once.

If you want a clean copy of the questions… check out the link up a few paragraphs Jenna has her blog post all done up nice and pretty for you and with some eye candy too! I don’t want to deprive you of that.

About The Evolution of Power

Something you’ve all been waiting for? Here’s a tidbit.

The Evolution of Power is the final part of the arc that bringsme x into the full path of my destiny or fate even though I despise those things. The big bad vampire from the last one is still at large and making big trouble in the were community specifically in NYC, while I’m doing his best to be the hero I know I can be and balancing my home life. But in the end I know I’m going to be hip deep in shit soon. Things will come to an unexpected head when the Venatori try to put a stop to things going on. The world will change because of these events.

And now the questions

  1. Which character is SO into the holidays, they nearly cause a street-wide power outage from all their Christmas lights?

Probably Sage. He’s really the only one who would deck the halls. He’d be one of those programmable lights with the music tuned into it. That’s right up his alley.

  1. Which character attends the office new years party with ONE date…and goes home with someone else?

Well, that could be one of three but neither one of them would do it anymore because they are all happily in a relationship.

  1. Which character is more than happy to steal Hanukkah gelt from poor, unsuspecting children? [Note: Hanukkah gelt = chocolate coins]

The boys from DS most likely would steal the kids chocolate, but not for the reasons you think. They are just oversize children themselves and would feel entitled to it.

  1. Fill in the blanks: I saw Dee doing a whole lot more than kissing Santa Claus. They were full on making out.
  2. One of your characters decides to pregame before church and passes out in the middle of the Christmas service. Which character is it?

Jace. He’s not a big church guy but he’s also not very smart about things when he tries to be sneaky

  1. Which character hasn’t been seen since winter began because they refuse to deal with the snow?

Dee. She doesn’t like the cold. Her favorite place to be in the cold is in bed with one of her living heaters next to her naked – preferably tied up

  1. Which character completely forgot about the holidays and ends up regifting to everyone?

Kai. He’s not a Christmas guy or a presents guy. He’d give the kids some of the most inappropriate gifts he received without thinking.

  1. Which character has such crappy luck, they only discover their potato allergy after pigging out on latkes?

Me. This is my luck.

  1. The Krampus has arrived to punish your very bad characters. Which character is kinda into it?

Again, me. Though I don’t do the hitting, that’ll freak me the fuck out and I’ll be curled up in a ball weeping.

  1. One of your characters should be on the naughty list, but has convinced Santa to clear their name. Which character is it, and what was their means of persuasion?

Dee. She can sweet talk anyone into anything at any time.