My new reality hasn’t really sunk in yet. I just left behind my whole world. Everything I knew. Everything I was – gone in a moment. My father just left. He and Dorian stopped by bringing me the remainder of my belongings. Which was a lot more than we had realized the Venatori were willing to part with. Technically it was all mine. Most of it went into the spare room in Sage’s basement. Fae and Drake shared a room now, and Matt was sleeping where Fae had been sleeping.
Sage was happy he had gotten his wish. I had moved in with him. I was happy to be here. But I was far from happy though it was easy to hide from Sage. It was when Dev was around that things got complicated. I hid from them. Closed myself off. I knew why. I didn’t want them to know how fucking scared I was. How much panic and anxiety was running through my body. I locked myself in my shields to protect Dee – that was my excuse when they came around.
I’m so fucked! It’s been two days since I left the Venatori. Two days into the worst panic attack of my life and I wasn’t speaking to my therapist. I should go see Adrian. He is certified to handle things like this but that’s not his career path. I was so fucked! I was completely unfurled from my old life. If I didn’t have my family I’d probably float off into the sunset with nothing to hold on to.