You ever want some thing so bad you tremble? I was never into substance abuse. I drink beer on occasion. I’ve only been drunk once in my life – I got a tattoo because of it. I haven’t drank that much since then. I typically fake it – I act drunk it’s easier to get away with stupid shit that way.

Up until recently I thought that kinda need or desire or want – whatever drove a person to tremble was faking it. At least I’d never experienced it.

If you are following along with The Last Phoenix you’ve met Sage. He left me wanting. In an upcoming scene he sends me into a panic attack. Not his doing, my own mind getting in the way of things. He makes me tremble in fear, in joy and in desire. Three things I would never have associated to a person in my life.

I fear I will lose him. I’m not the easiest person to love much less stay in the same room with for extended periods of time.

He makes me happy. A happiness I’ve been looking for. A single text can brighten my day. A simple touch of my hand sends sparks through my body.

Which leads to the desire I have for this man. Those blue eyes. I can’t get enough of them.

He makes me tremble – for all the good reasons.